Wednesday, December 22, 2010

2011 Preview

I am one of those people that loves fresh starts. When I was little, the new school year was my favorite. Brand new notebooks with nothing written on them yet, unsharpened full pencils. All of the anticipation of what is to come. I am still like that today. I love getting a new calendar for the year, just open to possibilities. Don't get me wrong, I love to look at the calendar at the end of the year to see all I have done, but there is just something about a new beginning.

Even though it is not yet the new year, I have been reflecting a lot on what this past year has been like and what I hope this new year coming up will bring. And I figured a little over a week head start to doing some resolutions couldn't really hurt. I am also hoping if I type it here in writing where anyone can read it (whether or not anyone actually does) it will hold me accountable to myself!

So here they are in no particular order:

1. Try not to yell.
Sadly, this is going to be a tough one for me. I had always thought once I became a mom I wouldn't yell at my kids. Well, okay, let's be realistic. I didn't think I would never yell, but I didn't really anticipate yelling quite so much as I do. I am a yeller. I hate to admit it. I have to say some of it is because I am just so frazzled. My darling baby girl doesn't sleep so well. She is finally getting better, but sleep deprivation is not good in the pursuit of calmness. And my darling big boy just knows how to push my buttons. So much so in fact that we are going to take him to counseling to check to see what to do about his naughty unruly behavior. But enough with the excuses. No one likes a yeller and it only ever works to elevate the situation to a frenzy. So resolution number one is to try to talk calmly and not yell so much. Granted, I will allow myself the occasional "Hot" or "Don't run out in front of that car" moment.

2. Get some exercise.
This one is pretty straight-forward. I don't exercise. I don't really like to exercise. But I am also not 21 anymore. I need to get on the ball with this one. Maybe literally as I do have an exercise ball! And I am leaving it vague so as not to set my self up for failure. I always get all lofty at the beginning of the year and say, "I will exercise 6 days a week for an hour a day." It is not going to happen. At least not right away.

3. Make some more time for myself.
Now this one actually may include resolution number 2. I know that when you exercise you feel a ton better. I have been so stressed out and tired lately and just am running on fumes. This makes it very hard for me to be a good mom (see resolution #1). I have got to let go of the guilt and make some time to do something to recharge my batteries. I am really hoping I can find some more time this next year to do my crafty stuff I love to do.

4. Get more organized.
Now for those of you who actually read this and know me pretty well, might be surprised by this one. I am a very organized person by nature. I am Type A all the way. But since having kids (and yes that was 4 years ago), I have had a very difficult time managing my time and my household. The hours seem to get away from me. I know I have a facebook problem that probably contributes greatly to that, but there are other things, too. I just can't seem to keep up with everything running a house and taking care of two kids entails. Paperwork piles up, dishes go unwashed and laundry piles up everywhere. And there are many days when I feel like I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off. But when reflecting back on the day, I think, "what did I actually do today." I don't want those days. I want to feel like I have spent quality time with the kids, with my husband, and for myself. And I am ready to feel some calm and order to my day.

5. Get out of debt.
Now this one may not be completely feasible, since we are a family of four living on one income that actually went down at the end of this year. But, I would like to take a crack at it. I am hoping this will alleviate some of the stress I have been feeling.

So here is looking forward to a wonderful new year!